I’ve been upset lately, unmotivated, bored and feeling stuck. I’ve been feeling like all my dreams and goals are farther than ever. As i’m going through Facebook I see one of my friends went to Italy. My dream is to travel and one of the main destinations i want to visit IS Italy, and seeing that of course I felt jealous. I cant afford to travel. I wanted to buy just a pair of jeans today but i cant even afford that. I have $11 in my bank account and w.e is in my savings is for bills and school. I cant find a job and work is giving me shitty hours. My paycheck is used up in a day or two. Like it sucks, its not just about not being able to get jeans but when i’m constantly reminded that traveling is expensive and my parents are unsure of helping me studying abroad because of the expense, its like life is telling me “your too poor to have dreams like that”. Like yes i’m blessed to have what i have and i do appreciate everything that has been given to me but at this current moment i’m going through my personal conflicts. Its okay to feel bad for yourself sometimes. I don’t usually bitch but i need to vent because not even my mother wants to understand me or hear me out. I’m just stressing that i’ll never get to do all the things i want to do. Traveling is my passion, screw getting married and kids in the suburbs. I want constant exploration, wisdom, and knowledge.