The way I see it, the world is mine. I receive what is given to me and take what I wan’t with grattitude and cherishment. Whether it be negative and/or positive, intentional or not. I choose to learn from my experiences to gain wisdom not grudges. I follow my vibes because most of the time they are accurate. I hardly ever have bad intentions, I catch myself when I do and ask myself if that’s the type of human i want to be. I don’t go by “codes” or “rules” that mere humans create, i refuse to constrict myself, but I’am considerate. My mind is open to different things and experiencing something new, “You can try everything in the world, but not everything is good for you”. I like the finer things in life, quality is everything. Settling is not an option for me, especially if it affects me personally. I care for myself and foremost, because by the end of the day it’s just me and God. I dislike going through life “walking on eggshells”, it’s not comfortable and it makes me feel awkward. I’m blunt, but I will alter my words around so that they may not offend a person that can’t handle it and receive the message at ease. I only trust my family, and a few good friends but i keep them at a distance. I cut negativity out of my life, whether it upsets others or not. I like to live my life with positive flows of energy around me. I refuse to “carry baggage”. Don’t confuse me for being selfish, I’m the complete opposite. I sincerely love to give, from advice to gifts and everyhting in between. All that matters is the the energy and intentions behind the action. I’m genuinely caring, i have compassion, and trust way too easily. It’s difficult for me to lie, even if it’s believable. I strive for my dreams and goals. Questo sono io.
"When someone sees the same people every day, they wind up becoming a part of that person’s life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isin’t what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own."
Thought this was going to be different, you made it seem that way. I find you interesting you know? Your broad vocabulary, your knowledge, the way you see life, you had me in shock. Not used to coming across people like you. I’m here thinking you find me interesting as well, our conversations going more into depth the longer we chilled. Meanwhile we enjoy the lovely affects of Mary Jane, oh how she would bring us together. How can i forget, your voice, your words flowed out of your mouth like water. It was pleasing to my ears. There i sat in your car, seduced by your soft touch and smooth voice i finally gave in, but not fully. You had a taste and you learned i wasn’t going to give myself away that easy. I kissed you goodbye and i sensed your hesitation on your lips. Contacted me a day later, only to try to get something out of me. That was it, no interest in how my day was actually going, how i’m feeling, or what i was doing. Completely disregarded the times we had, that i appreciated. They were simple and insignificant in your mind, well that’s what i think. It’s okay though, you made me realize your just like the others, your Mainstream. Here I was thinking, maybe just MAYBE this time would be different. What an unfortunate result.
So i made my schedule for the last time at Suffolk (hopefully *crosses fingers*) idk but something always creeps up with suffolk, oh wait now you gotta take this class! hold up you need 1/2 a credit! blahzee blah -_- But yea school went by so quick. Im so stoked for what’s yet to come. Surprisingly i think i found my calling, my passion, something that is my element. Could this really be? will i no longer be an indecisive college student in search of a career path to pursue for the rest of my life? i sure do hope so. I dont want to settle and live my life asking myself what could of been. I know exactly what i wan’t and that is what i strive for. FIN.